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When you are young, you believe that no harm will ever come to you. With a childish mind, engulfed by the hopes and dreams of a fairytale life; where no hurt reaches the depths of our souls nor shatter our hearts to be lost. Sadness, comes it leaves for awhile but the scars never fully heal. I started off as your normal everyday child, raised in a prety average family. i am not sure where thing started to go wrong but i guess that why im sitting here. We can all see something went wrong with me, my parents dont want to blame themselves. My teachers have given up on me. My brothers and sisters dont want to know me. And my boyfriend is scared

its never fair, the life some people have to live. When life gives you a hard go and your alone, its even harder when your surrounded by people, But they seem like empty shells, just hanging around. The people in this world who succeed, are the lucky ones; but they are so full of greed and want for power, they do not deserve the smiles they have been given. Then the poeple who deserve the smiles and laughter, The ones who deserve the love and care, get pushed aside, because they are too kind hearted. They want to fight for the joy and success; but to do that, they musnt care for others.

My greatest weaknes is my insecurity, That ill never be good enough. It is my stubborness that i have forgotten the past, which leaves me with an empty slate of confusion. Blocking out any signs of happiness, because it was once a rarity in my life. Now i am just full of regret and anger, that i gave up too quickly. I have never consider myself a weak person; but i do consider myself a fool; For running away from the thought of happiness. I am a coward, that i let my emotions take over me. That now my emotipond, that are shadowed from th past are too strong to control.